The first shy look, pretending not to be looking, having butterflies in your stomach. And oh! That first kiss? Can you remember after all the years the excitement and feelings attached to it? I am sure the majority of us will be able to say where, how and who it was.
Just so, do you remember the first time you turned to God? When you committed yourself to Him? Whether it was out of desperation in a cry for help, or in a time when you had no way out, and He helped you, and you had a relationship with Him. When a problem is solved and we see God’s hand in it, we are grateful and we then give Him praise and honour, and we are excited to start walking the road. However, if things go right then we become lukewarm, doing our thing, and when the pawpaw hits the fan again, we remember God. He will help… However, He is not like the advert on TV like the Italian Mama that gets put back into the cupboard when she was not needed to cook anymore. He must be your focus, always!
A new Christian typically experiences a “first love” for the truth, eagerly studying God’s word. What we learned was so exciting, we burned the midnight oil to learn more. We had a hunger in us for Him, to learn more. Have you had a relationship with God, living your life to the fullest with the Holy Spirit operating in your life, but now… you feel that He is not there for you anymore. Or are you so busy in your life that there is no time for a relationship with Him? Do you battle to just get through the day with your own stuff, let alone spending time with Him?
When a believer does not depend on God to meet his daily needs, his love for God grows cold. Jesus said: “I have somewhat against thee, because thou hast left thy first love. Remember therefore from whence thou art fallen, and repent, and do the first works . . .” (Revelation 2:4–5).
If you find yourself in this position, ask God to have mercy on you and to rekindle your love for Him. In these perilous times we are living in, if you do not have the Truth in your life, you will always depend on yourself, and we fall short, most of the times. When your focus is not on Him, you will get hurt. You will also get hurt if your focus is on Him because we live in a broken world, however, you will have the ability to work through it and emotionally and spiritually survive, knowing that He knows your focus.
How do we experience that first love with Christ again? There was a time when David found he had drifted away from God. He no longer felt that former joy and confidence. He turned back to God, asked for forgiveness and seriously and fervently prayed, “Restore to me the joy of Your salvation, and uphold me by Your generous Spirit” (Psalms 51:12). David was reconciled with God, but it had to come from himself. God will never leave or forsake us, if you are feeling far away from Him, guess who moved?
If you want to experience your First Love with Him again, it is up to you. You know how to do it, just start!